Funny as this may sound, but I do find myself feeling guilty or embarrassed when I think I have received too much of God’s blessings or favour.
Have you felt the same way?
Responding to His blessings
I would also find myself in an uneasy situation where I would feel embarrassed to share those awesome testimonies with others when required to.
The common struggle would be my overly concern about what others might think of me and perceived that I am boasting or bragging.
This is especially so when it happens to be in the aspect of material/practical or financial prosperity.
I guess this might have to do with a wrong self-image or being rooted in a wrong theology towards finances that had not been addressed before.
However, I have being unlearning, re-learning and learning these matters and realised that I should neither deny nor be ashamed of His blessings and favour over my life.
By doing so, I would be de-valuing who I am as His child and not allowing Him to be fully and accurately reflected in my life.
Learning from Joseph
I read in the Bible that among all of Jacob’s sons, he doted and loved Joseph the most.
When Jacob gave Joseph a beautiful robe, he put it on despite knowing that it would have incurred the wrath of his brothers.
But he still did it because he was more interested in honouring his dad than gaining the approval of his brothers.
Likewise, I recognised that God loves me unreservingly. And His blessings and favour are bestowed upon me undeservingly. This is for His glory, not mine.
More importantly, my self-image and identity are held up in God as His child; His beloved and anointed son.
As He is, so am I.